Thoughts

STOP! I get distracted and stare endlessly into space. I think about things from my past that have resurfaced. As I think I lose track of time. I'm suddenly taken away from my thoughts when my friends start tapping my shoulder harder every time saying "earth to Ivanna, are you there?" I don't know how to respond so I just smile and say "oh." I feel annoyed. I liked thinking. It was a relief to get all my emotions out in my private little world also known as my mind. I try to get back to thinking but I realize I forgot where I was on my train of thought. Frustrated, I try to join my friends in what they are talking about.

Time

Im so close to graduating. I remember when I was 10 saying "I can't wait to be one of those beutiful, mature women that are graduating." And now I finally am. And sometimes I feel like I just pause in time and think about my future, past, and present.I mean life is going so fast. To me I find it scary thinking about what will happen next. You never know if it will be bad or good. And this whole graduating thing got me thinking about time. What is time. I know about the basics but I want to know how and why it happens. Why can't we control it. I feel like we are slaves to time itself. It is not like you can escape and pause. You can never take a break and it's like your a puppet being controlled. And it's like time is mocking you sometimes because when you want time to go faster it just slows down and when you just want to live in the moment it speeds up. Time, will we ever figure out its secrets?

Beauty

What is beauty? To some it's being tall. To some it's the ability to face the world with 100% self confidence. But I think we can all agree the most publicized type of beauty is being so skinny that if you bend down you have the possibility of splitting in half. Ok, maybe not THAT skinny but still the standards are pretty high. Marketers have now got almost the whole world to believe that skinny is always better. No real looking models out there (except for the "plus sized" ones a.k.a average looking ones). Marketers have got 65% of girls living on the planet to have an eaing disorder and I know 1% of that 65%. Although there have been very strong messages about not believing in that and that everyone is beautiful, no one will think that until marketers say "alright, Let's make our models more average looking so people don't have to compare to someone with 50lbs of makeup and then went through the photoshop process for 3 hours and that includes shrinking her waiste even more." At school they keep saying everyone's beautiful but I just want them to shut up because if the society isn't convinced that your beautiful then what's the point. Although you will think of yourself as pretty you have the reminder by billboards and ads that you are not (which is never true). People will always have this image of a perfect girl and guess who will never feel like she is beautiful in this world. Me. Everyday, when I wake up, I look out the window, and I see ads with "hot" women. I just say to myself "why cant I look like that?" Humans consume around over 1000 ads a day. That's a lot of put downs. People, this is the world we live in.

Music

Music. Most of the times when people talk about music is when they are saying "oh I love this song!" or "I love this artist." but what we do not talk about very often is how music takes control over us. Music can make us laugh. Make us cry. Make us look back on our life. Just by the toon. Just by the sound waves. You probably have noticed that movie makers take advantage of this trick. They use it to make you feel a certain way in one scene. And a different way in an another. Sometimes (in my opinion)they use the music so much that it loseses it's effect and leaves you laughing at how intense the scene is. Pop stars sometimes make the song a certain way that it's like your brain absorbes the music and you buy it because you "like" it. But you know music is truly good when it inspires you in a dark situation. That's another example of how music has the power to control us. You feel bad, and music will make you feel better. In drastic measures it can change your personality if you liston to a certain type of music a lot. Like hip hop. You can change from really optimistic, to eminem(sometimes hip hop does that to me it's really weird). Alternative music has made me feel more powerful. Like I have the ability to do anything. Pop music makes me want to party.Humans have been effected by music for centuries. If your looking for a way to make someone feel a certain emotion, music is the way to do it.

Popularity

People are always talking about how "oh I want to be populer" or "oh I'm not friends with the populer person I'm so depressed." but it really does not matter if your populer or not. It just matters that you have kind and supporting friends and your happy. Popularity Is so superficial and so unimportant in this world filled with problems that it should be the least of our worries. And sometimes the populer people are not as happy as they seem (probably not in my case since my school would totally be gossiping about it). So overall the point is we humans have to stop being so obsessed with popularity and looks and such (if that's even possible).

The Lorax

I saw the lorax on the 14th and overall it was really good. I would have liked it better without the random musical numbers. Those kind of things are not my cup of tea. But the 3.D was really great. I like the moral of the story. The moral was we have to try to save our planet and if we don't care about this issue it won't get better. We have to care. Betty white was awesome as the grandma of Zac Efon. So funny. Zac Efron was great at his role (although I think he is great at all his roles). I think everyone should at least see this movie once.

The Economy

So I was watching a documentary on a cannel that I stumbled upon and forgot the name. The documentary was about the economy and the people in the documentary were trying to find out how people become poor. They interviewed a man struggling financially and said that his mom's parents were also struggling which leads to his own parents struggling which leads to him. So it got me thinking why doesn't the government do something about this vicious cycle of poverty. If they don't do something soon all the families that are struggling financially will eventually come to a point where the last generation can't go on anymore. I also heard in the documentary that the government does help but only when it's basically to late. This makes me upset because by the time the government comes to help there is no use for the money. Especially since its given once a month and it's not much anyway (at least the documentary said its a small amount). I think the goverment should help at the time the people's finnace is just becoming bad. Not when its hit rock bottom. I wish our economy was better. Although I'm living somewhere with one of the best economies, does not mean its a good economy. To anyone dealing with finnacial issues I wish all the best and hope it becomes better.

The paranormal

There have been many marathons of shows of the paranormal today which got me thinking about the paranormal. What if there are such things as ghost and they are watching us do our daily activities. What if there is such thing as bigfoot it's just te footage is really easy to recreate. What if there are aliens trying to invade our planet. I know it all sounds crazy but I keep on thinking "what if?" Maybe the U.S government has proof that all the things we doubt are existing and the U.S goverment is threatening people to keep quiet when they find proof about that kind of stuff. Maybe the U.S government knows a destined fate for the human race. Yeah, it sounds ridiculous but it would be so cool if that was the truth.

Labels

Have you ever been in those situations where you see a ridiculous outfit from a great label and everyone is like "that's amazing" and your like "umm... No it's not." Then you see everyone wearing it the next day and your like " what are you wearing that's just awful!" Well I have. And I noticed its not the outfit that people like. It's the designer (at least it looks like it). For example, apparently capes are in style now and everyone is like "it's such a fashion revolution" and I am like "you look like your wearing a costume." Although I love how Gweneth Paltrow wore it at the Oscars. But still, I would never be cought dead wearing a cape. And not everyone can wear a cape as good as Gweneth Paltrow. Sarah Jessica Parker tried to wear a red cape with a red dress but she just looked like an old little red riding hood ( no offense Sarah Jessica Parker). Yet people still complimented it. Well the moral of this is just because it's a good label does not mean its a good outfit.

Looking back

When I look back on my life I get mad and sad. Because I hate who I was in the past. I just realized this year that sometimes I was not the most kind person in the world. Because of the influence one of my "friends" in the past gave me. But this past year I have worked on myself and now I am one of the nicest people around. I'm also mad at myself in the past for being so annoying and awkward(I've worked on that to). Why does the past have to be so humiliating. There are many times I wish someone invented a time machine already. But I just have to learn to put it all behind me and work on my future.

Just writing something

I can write about birds excitement's the word but no I'm just writing something. I can write about the trees and multicolored bees but no I'm just writing something. I can write about the sun and all that once was but no I'm just writing something.I can't think of anything to write about at all. Maybe I should just keep on staring at the wall.

ABSTRACT

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"it's not being completely unafraid, fearless is living in spite of those fears."

- Taylor Swift

"a high tide raises all boats."

-John F. Kennedy

I'm pretty, but I'm not beautiful. I sin, but I'm not the devil. Im good, but I'm not an angel.

- Marilyn Monroe

A thing of beauty is a joy forever: it's loveliness increases; it will never pass into nothingness

-John Keats

It's like your screaming,and no one can hear. You almost feel ashamed... That someone could be that important that without them you feel like nothing. No one will understand how much it hurts. You feel hopeless...like nothing can save you. And when it's over, and it's gone... You almost wish you could have all that bad stuff back so that you can have the good.

-Rihanna